1. Bike 3 Times a week to the Park and Ride(EASILY ATTAINABLE)
2. Log 10 Miles per week on Ipod Nike
3. Qualify for a major poker tourney
2. Log 10 Miles per week on Ipod Nike
3. Qualify for a major poker tourney
bah i never know whether to do this stuff.
i guess get a good summer job. not really a resolution as much as a goal.
i guess get a good summer job. not really a resolution as much as a goal.
I usually don't do these because it being the new year never really helps me to keep them.
I'll try to think of a couple anyway. or is it too late? :)
I'll try to think of a couple anyway. or is it too late? :)
I've already begun my New Year's Resolution: to abstain from all studio financed films, id est, to focus on truly independently financed movies for one year.
that's a neat resolution!
(please note, I am allowing myself a few exceptions -- I'm not going to punish myself.)
i am now in first real relationship of my life. the other things i realize were now just short flings that really meant nothing but passion and heartache.
at first i was crazy about this girl. i was willing to turn my world upside-down. to distance myself from my friends, family, routine, and school in order to make space in my life for her. and at that time she craved and demanded it for she did the same for me.
i was strong then, beautiful and successful and confident in all these things i pushed away. she was fragile, leaning on me and burning with longing to be confirmed. so i confirmed her and she looked up to me.
but her personality was not to be suppressed. even in her humiliation and love of me she found a need to cut me down. to tear me from my throne of imaginary glory and grind me under her heels in her head so that her personality would not be subsumed.
I knew she was unhappy and i reshaped our worlds to make her dreams come possible. slowly, my dreams became less important as i made sacrifices, bit by bit to her hopes.
i helped her reestablish friendships and new friendships while mine still dwindled. i helped and encouraged her in her studies while i did poorly.
and ultimately, i find that she no longer looks up to me. for her strength is deep and rich and supported by friends, her studies, and her family members. while, she still remains the solitary figure in my world.
then terrible things happen so easily when i am around her. she says one small, meaningless derogatory comment and i find myself cut so deep. she neglects to spend time with me or does not share her conversations with me and i find myself feeling so rejected. she finds herself subtly unsatisfied with some elements of our relationship and i find myself feeling rejected.
i have rejected or pushed away so many things that defined me before i knew her so that now my chief sense of self-worth is defined through her. she must know this in turn know how supremely insufficient she is, and despise me for my need of her.
now i come to realize, that this thing about power in relationships is not about two apes fighting for dominance, but about two people fighting for enough dignity to love themselves so that they can love each other without clinging.
it is the difficult dance of monogamy, ‘to be happy alone, so that we can be happy together.’
new year’s resolutions:
1, do everything i did before finding her and do it better
2, no longer cut her down in my mind in order to prop up my feeble ego.
at first i was crazy about this girl. i was willing to turn my world upside-down. to distance myself from my friends, family, routine, and school in order to make space in my life for her. and at that time she craved and demanded it for she did the same for me.
i was strong then, beautiful and successful and confident in all these things i pushed away. she was fragile, leaning on me and burning with longing to be confirmed. so i confirmed her and she looked up to me.
but her personality was not to be suppressed. even in her humiliation and love of me she found a need to cut me down. to tear me from my throne of imaginary glory and grind me under her heels in her head so that her personality would not be subsumed.
I knew she was unhappy and i reshaped our worlds to make her dreams come possible. slowly, my dreams became less important as i made sacrifices, bit by bit to her hopes.
i helped her reestablish friendships and new friendships while mine still dwindled. i helped and encouraged her in her studies while i did poorly.
and ultimately, i find that she no longer looks up to me. for her strength is deep and rich and supported by friends, her studies, and her family members. while, she still remains the solitary figure in my world.
then terrible things happen so easily when i am around her. she says one small, meaningless derogatory comment and i find myself cut so deep. she neglects to spend time with me or does not share her conversations with me and i find myself feeling so rejected. she finds herself subtly unsatisfied with some elements of our relationship and i find myself feeling rejected.
i have rejected or pushed away so many things that defined me before i knew her so that now my chief sense of self-worth is defined through her. she must know this in turn know how supremely insufficient she is, and despise me for my need of her.
now i come to realize, that this thing about power in relationships is not about two apes fighting for dominance, but about two people fighting for enough dignity to love themselves so that they can love each other without clinging.
it is the difficult dance of monogamy, ‘to be happy alone, so that we can be happy together.’
new year’s resolutions:
1, do everything i did before finding her and do it better
2, no longer cut her down in my mind in order to prop up my feeble ego.
and I like phi's resolution. how'd it go?
bobc: hefty.
my new years resolution is to address all my major stress creators rather than avoid them.
nice nny.
yeah, that is a good one. it is amazing how much more stress things cause when you are avoiding them, sometimes.
new new year's resolution: brush teeth and floss twice a day.
(so far so good.)
I like you, Bob. I appreciate that kind of candor. But it doesn't sound like a very healthy relationship...are you planning on getting out, or trying to fix?
My new years resolution is just to have a better year than the last one. Something's gotta give.
My new years resolution is just to have a better year than the last one. Something's gotta give.
what was wrong with 2010 for you?
etrangere that sounds like a very young approach to new years resolutions.
hold on to that.
hold on to that.
tryin' hard, nny
> what was wrong with 2010 for you?
Lots of small things that added up quickly (I've shared some on ttf!), as well as a few very large ones that lead to a near-complete happiness failure
Lots of small things that added up quickly (I've shared some on ttf!), as well as a few very large ones that lead to a near-complete happiness failure