Lately I've been feeling that I am starting to reach the peak of my intellectual capacity. I know for a fact that this isn't true as I am constantly learning new things everyday and do not have any trouble picking up a new hobby or subject in a relatively short amount of time. However, this does not really mirror my sentiments. I am seriously in a funk right now and highly debating dropping out of college and becoming a corporate shill. I really don't know what is wrong with me and I am trying to get some opinions as I highly respect this online community. Any words would be comforting here, so please don't hold back. I think the main reasons I feel this way is the following:
1. Math is extraordinarily hard for me. The hardest part is breaking down what I do not understand, as I have yet to feel that my professors are actually teaching me anything. I've felt this way all my life when math started getting harder.
2. I couldn't get my Linked list to work, and I felt like a failure. Of course this was one night of programming, but I usually do not have trouble with anything in data structures.
3. Reading shit online is very sobering when people say I SHOULD know this or that, when in reality I have no idea.
I don't know if this is a lack of direction in my studies or what, but I am seriously depressed about this. I dunno maybe I should just smoke up.
1. Math is extraordinarily hard for me. The hardest part is breaking down what I do not understand, as I have yet to feel that my professors are actually teaching me anything. I've felt this way all my life when math started getting harder.
2. I couldn't get my Linked list to work, and I felt like a failure. Of course this was one night of programming, but I usually do not have trouble with anything in data structures.
3. Reading shit online is very sobering when people say I SHOULD know this or that, when in reality I have no idea.
I don't know if this is a lack of direction in my studies or what, but I am seriously depressed about this. I dunno maybe I should just smoke up.
Do you actually like maths? If you do, all you need to make it easier is practice. The same goes for programming. With enough practice, you'll soon find the linked list program to be trivial.
Yea I really do. I like everything I am taking in class. I've just been in a real funk lately. I dunno wtf is up. Of course working 12 hour days and fighting this damn stomach virus isn't helping the situation very much either.
1. don't give up half-way through something unless you have no interest whatsoever in continuing. it sounds like you have quite a bit of interest, still...
2. prioritize health over work.
2. prioritize health over work.
i agree with andre about the practice. unless you're really not up to the work -- you can make it!
the art of balancing your emotional and physical wellbeing with: requirements for work to make the money to keep a spot to sleep, grades sufficient for grad school entry, maintaining social relationship, and keeping sane amongst the restrictions of each, is difficult to master and tiring to maintain.
if you have that goal in your mind, it takes each one of the intermediary steps and diligence.
i had a similar impression about math being difficult. when i transferred to a california school i performed poorly on the entrance exam in the math portion and had to take a whole set of courses. some of them were really difficult for me to understand. to abbreviate, i would get stuck on a problem for hours.
talking with other students, or aids always helped. oh and remember to take breaks. i like doing things in blocks but if the block exceeds an hour on difficult material it's a good idea to break for a bit. Eat a tangelo for instance! Music also helps. I'm not an advocate of listening to music while you study all the time, but getting yourself in a ready state with music always helps me. Sometimes it takes me jamming out to some punk, dancey with club tunes, or hyphy with rap, or chill with ambient. One last thing that saved me was spending my study time in a nice place. I have some favorite spots in LA/OC for relaxing and getting my mind to work -- parks, beaches, cafes, libraries, and stores.
gatz don't resort to mj. it's a bad idea and a worse habit to turn to a substance to cope. i'm glad you decided to reach out to ttf though :D
you got this!
besides, jobs are shit right now and even people with degrees and 10-15 years of working experience are having issues getting something legitimate. you'll likely be competing directly with 35-45 year olds for some of the same positions. just to give you some incentive :p
the art of balancing your emotional and physical wellbeing with: requirements for work to make the money to keep a spot to sleep, grades sufficient for grad school entry, maintaining social relationship, and keeping sane amongst the restrictions of each, is difficult to master and tiring to maintain.
if you have that goal in your mind, it takes each one of the intermediary steps and diligence.
i had a similar impression about math being difficult. when i transferred to a california school i performed poorly on the entrance exam in the math portion and had to take a whole set of courses. some of them were really difficult for me to understand. to abbreviate, i would get stuck on a problem for hours.
talking with other students, or aids always helped. oh and remember to take breaks. i like doing things in blocks but if the block exceeds an hour on difficult material it's a good idea to break for a bit. Eat a tangelo for instance! Music also helps. I'm not an advocate of listening to music while you study all the time, but getting yourself in a ready state with music always helps me. Sometimes it takes me jamming out to some punk, dancey with club tunes, or hyphy with rap, or chill with ambient. One last thing that saved me was spending my study time in a nice place. I have some favorite spots in LA/OC for relaxing and getting my mind to work -- parks, beaches, cafes, libraries, and stores.
gatz don't resort to mj. it's a bad idea and a worse habit to turn to a substance to cope. i'm glad you decided to reach out to ttf though :D
you got this!
besides, jobs are shit right now and even people with degrees and 10-15 years of working experience are having issues getting something legitimate. you'll likely be competing directly with 35-45 year olds for some of the same positions. just to give you some incentive :p
I agree with you dp on finding a nice place to study. I've always just studied in my room or house but I've found it impossible to do any reading or studying in these places anymore.
Lately I've really enjoyed getting up early and just wandering around town with my backpack of homework and reading. I cant describe how much better I'm comprehending things now that I've gotten away from my main distractions.
Lately I've really enjoyed getting up early and just wandering around town with my backpack of homework and reading. I cant describe how much better I'm comprehending things now that I've gotten away from my main distractions.